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Well, there goes another chance at finding love. The guy I'm dating (newly dating, got together Christmas Eve last month), I'm gonna have to break up with him. I thought he was going to be a fun and admirable guy since that's all he showed me in our first few days of knowing each other, but he's nothing close in his day to day. All he expresses are things that lead to negative outcomes. Everything he does is too extreme and abnormal in every area. Too much affection too often (we're talking like, every few minutes of every day. Imagine hearing 'I love you' every few minutes daily and trying to hold your hand every time you're around each other), too much constant closeness and not allowing me to have my space (he calls quite a few times every single day, not even allowing me to have any time to myself), repeating the same sentences for over a month and hardly talks about anything new or positive, he's always still like a statue all the time even when fun is happening around him, he even doesn't talk to where people can understand him most of the time since he constantly mumbles in a monotone every time he talks, he always connects negative scenarios to our relationship, constantly says sorry and that he won't do this and that even though he never did anything wrong and I never said anything discouraging in the first place, always worrying he's doing something wrong. He's just negative and uptight all the time which ends any fun or positive aura I had like he's a rain cloud to my sunny day. And that's not enjoyable to be around in a romantic relationship.

I tried helping him, giving him caring and friendly advice, but he doesn't take it. He ignores that I said anything helpful and continues his negative attitude. I just can't take that. I don't know anyone that could. I've taken it for over a month, and I just can't take it anymore. If he doesn't want to enjoy life and focus on the positive of things, then I sadly have to keep our interactions strictly back to friends. I hate to do this since I know it's going to hurt him because he kept telling me how I'm the one for him and we're gonna get married one day and stuff, but it's not healthy being with someone that sees life as nothing but negative. Why can't I find a guy that's positive in life and treats a girlfriend right? I seem to only find that in guys that aren't having a crush on me. And those that do have a crush on me always have severe damage to their character in some way that breaks bonds instead of strengthens them. I don't get it. There has to be someone out there that has a crush on me and knows how to live life right and treat the one they're with right. I don't ask for much like most people do when it comes to dating. All I want is someone that is healthy in mind, body, and attitude, that's it, no oulandish specifics. That's what everyone should want since that's what leads to good outcomes in life. I hope I find the one that's for me soon. I don't want to be in my 30s and still not have found a stable guy to be with.

~Berry
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Man, I have been so busy! A lot of things have been happening in my personal life, some good some bad, mostly good though. Been going back and forth between family and church, I have a love life that caught me by surprise....just so much happening at once. Now I have to make a difficult decision involving two people that are dear to me. Oh boy, I'm not ready for this. I will be getting to videos as soon as I can, till then.

~Berry

Busy

Nov. 23rd, 2015 01:33 pm
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Whoo, I've been busy lately. I've been going to church every Sunday and doing Thanksgiving there, and I'm also planning for a trip to see a friend of mine. I've recently been offered to be one of the main singers at church, which I took, so now I'm the fourth main singer there. Went on their stage for the first time just yesterday in fact. It was lots of fun. I'll be recording more Zelda: Twilight Princess and Scooby-Doo today and hopefully get those up in the next day or two. See y'all then. ^ - '

~Berry

Halloween!

Nov. 1st, 2015 01:11 am
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Happy Halloween, everyone! I hope you had a good one, I did. Speaking of Halloween, more Scooby-Doo will be posted tomorrow. Things get rather spooky in episode 2. I will also post what I went as for Halloween tomorrow. Can you guess who I was? See y'all tomorrow. ^ - '

~Berry
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Like, thoroughly stunned, dude. I just had a vision last night that I confirmed today. When I woke up this morning, I found it odd that my dream I just had focused only on the color yellow. The people in my dreams had on yellow shirts while their surrounding clothes that were dirty on the floor were yellow. The flowers outside were yellow. My dreams zoomed in on it and emphasized it and everything. At first I was lost as to what it meant since yellow has so many meanings. Then my mom texted me saying she's currently in poor health and is battling issues with her blood pressure and parts of her mouth. I didn't think it had anything to do with the message that my dreams were trying to tell me, so I didn't connect them. Then I looked up all the possible meanings of yellow. Of course, a lot of definitions for it came up, but one stood out to me, especially after talking with my mom. Some of the negative definitions of yellow was danger and caution, but what was after that was one meaning I didn't know yellow stood for......physical illness. It said physical illness was one of the things yellow stands for. And my mom told me just minutes before that she was sick with many different things. That makes my dreams message from last night completely clear now on why it was focusing on yellow so much. It was trying to warn me of my mom's current condition. I felt a rush of amazement and worry. Incredible how I was told that. Thank you visions yet again for telling me what I need to know. Hope my mom is going to be okay and takes care of her health more. She hasn't been at all for so many years, so I saw this coming, just didn't expect it to be now. Word of the wise to everyone reading this; take care of your health, or it will stop taking care of you.

~Berry

So Close!

Sep. 14th, 2015 10:35 pm
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I'm so freakin' close to finishing up with uploading all of Sakura Wars, only 5 or 6 videos of it to go. When that's all uploaded, I have 2 fun games that's gonna start. One that's an epic adventure/combat/puzzle solving; and one that's a funny classic just for the Halloween season. I should've started the two new ones by now.....gotta work fast! Gotta work fast! Gotta work faster, faster, fasta-fasta-faster! xD

~Berry
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Another Short Play and 2 special videos are coming soon. And one of them was highly requested. So looking forward to you guys' reaction! :D

~Berry

Big 23!

Jul. 29th, 2015 10:22 pm
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My birthday is tomorrow, whoot-whoot! 23.......dang, I'm moving up in the numbers faster than I can keep up with. xD

~Berry
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I've got the editing problem solved just now and I was finally able to edit and render. Expect more videos uploaded today! :3

~Berry

Sorry!

Jul. 24th, 2015 07:11 pm
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Sorry about uploads being slow right now. I'm having problems with my editor. It's not letting me edit certain things properly, so there will be a small delay in uploads since I have to figure this out in order to continue developing my videos. I will do what I can as fast as I can.

~Berry
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Believe it or not, I'm almost done with Sakura Wars. Yep, I almost got this thing beat! I'm recording the final episode today. Of course it won't be that close to the end for you all since I've got around like....16 videos left to upload of it, so you are near to seeing the end, but not quite the end yet. Fair warning, the game gets sad near the end. I'm not sure if it has a sad ending, though, since I haven't seen the end yet. I hope it has a good ending, I hate negative endings. Oh, and sorry it took so long for me to upload new videos of the game. After I came back from that family job, things got crazy here back at home, and then I had to learn my new editor and that took a while since it's so complex. I got the hang of the program now, though, so I am back up to speed. More Sakura Wars coming very soon. :3

~Berry

Almost Time

Jul. 4th, 2015 09:33 am
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Hang tight! Sakura Wars is about to be uploaded very soon.

~Berry
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Hey, everyone, sorry for the recent delay on videos. A lot of personal things have been happening one after the other which is making it tough to record. Things are calming down now, though, so I will be able to record more Sakura Wars tomorrow and get those up as fast as I can. Thanks for being patient.

~Berry

Get Ready

Jun. 14th, 2015 09:57 pm
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Getting ready to put up some vlogs. I have so much of them to upload, geez. xD

~Berry
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I'm finally back home from my mom and stepdad's house! Now I can get back to making videos, whoohoo! :D

~Berry
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That vision I talked about in the previous post....it happened last night! :D
I knew it was a vision all this time...I felt it, but I needed validation to completely believe it to be so. *Sigh* I feel so freakin' happy and complete. Never felt this happy and complete before. I've known him for so long and know the kind of person he is so well, and he's a wonderful guy, the kind people only dream of, but never find. So I know I will enjoy every moment with him and expect a happy and healthy relationship. I truly feel, telling by chemistry quality, that he is the one for me. We fit so perfectly together, and I can't think of anyone else that would be able to top that or equal that since you don't just commonly find people like this. I'm so blessed and I thank God for leading us to each other and for telling me beforehand. I couldn't be happier. :3

~Berry
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Okay, I am thrumming with energy right now! xD Why? I had a vision three months ago about a friend of mine and I being a couple. We were on a sidewalk of a strip of stores sharing ice cream and being all affectionate and couply as we walked. This is a vision that hasn't happened yet, but is about to now (as in me and the mentioned friend are about to get together). How I know is because I've been dropped massively obvious clues of it on and off from the mentioned friend lately, so it's about to happen for sure! I really like this guy, so I'm super excited! I'm even more excited at the fact that (little does he know) I've known this info for a little over 3 months now already purely from that vision and am now about to witness it. Experiencing events out of their normal order like this is just fun and awesome! Knowing what's going to happen before it happens or before any clue of it happening is shown is a fun and exciting experience, as if I have an exclusive look into what no one else is able to. Makes me feel really special. When I tell him that I had a vision of us becoming a couple and dating before he could even tell me anything of it, I wonder how shocked and amazed he'll be. xD He's never experienced my gift before (though, he knows about my gifts), so that will be fun. I better get to bed now. I'm bringing up the discussion of this to him tomorrow, so hopefully the next time I type in this, me and him will be together and dating like I saw a few months ago. Night all.
^ - ^ /

~Berry

Got It Up!

May. 26th, 2015 11:37 am
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Part 29 of Sakura Wars is now up. Me and my guest had a blast! The events in the game get wackier in the last part with my guest, sheesh. xD

In other news, I will be out of town for a little over two weeks starting today helping my mom and stepdad take care of their Great Dane while they go out of state, so I might not be able to upload any new videos till I get back since their internet is so bad. I might try to, though. Big horse of a dog, here I come.

~Berry
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Hey, everyone! Sorry to say, but I can't get part 29 of Sakura Wars with Cory out today. I'm too busy watching Cory's livestream of which is lasting 48 hours. You will see me in it with him and MavAttack if you watched. I think Cory recorded it, so you might be able to see it on Cory's Youtube channel. I had a blast with them. Those two are so fun to hang out with as always. That was my first time on a livestream AND the first time I talked to MavAttack in voice chat form. I've talked to both of them numerous times, but have never talked to them at the same time before. That needs to happen more 'cause it's so fun. ^ - ^ I talk to Cory on a weekly basis, but only get to talk to Mav sometimes and since Mav is just as awesome as Cory, it would be fun talking to MavAttack a little more often too. Would be fun to join Cory's livestream again. I think he'll need help from his friends to stay up for the livestream, and I'm one of those friends that is good at keeping people awake (when they want to stay awake, that is). Me and MavAttack are really the only friends Cory has that can attend the livestream thoroughly and that he can trust. With us, Cory can stay up through the whole 48 hours successfully along with the samurai. Well, time to watch more of his livestream. Talk to you guys later. ^ - ^ /

~Berry
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I'm about to do something VERY bold here. Depending on what my best friend thinks, I'm about to make a HUGE brave move of which has me anxious as crap. I'll update the details about it later. Ugh, man, I can't believe I'm doing this.

~Berry

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